Did I learn my lesson
or am I doomed to repeat?
blood baths
always last
longer than the sexy carnage
to which my pain lays homage
is it sacrilege
for a masochist
to ignore their patronage
as they pray to love pain free
I mean
how much of a pain slut
can you really be
if your love isn’t doused
with flaming rage
and emotional decay
trauma exploding
with a half life set to
savage
does it count
if every second away from it
doesn’t ravage your soul
Bloody marks
up umber arms
harks the burdens
this soul bears
alarms blare
under light stark
and I don’t care
that the world isn’t fair
I walk to you
unable to run
to cover the miles
I’ll get there when I can
bloody and torn
forlorn and lost
knowing I tried
even as I cried
but it won’t be enough
and as I fall to my knees
begging reprieve
as it collapses to darkness
again
I’ll whisper softly...
Did I learn my lesson
or am I doomed to repeat?
© 2021 JayLynn Watkins. All Rights Reserved.
JayLynn Watkins is an author whose first love and written outlet was poetry. After decades of also writing fiction, she considers herself a kind of conduit for characters, offering tales that span many genres. JayLynn’s most recent works have spanned many spheres within the adult fiction world. With some of her short stories traversing the labeled genres of erotica, romance, poetry, science-fiction, and mythological reimaginings. When setting out to relay a new tale, her only goal is to accurately and completely translate the adventures her characters whisper in her ear, so her readers can truly experience a journey like no other.